quietly content. contently quiet

No pictures this time. I have only words. But they're words depicting a happiness. I say 'a happiness' as opposed to 'happiness' because only saying 'happiness' suggests a general emotion, one I come by regularly and almost expectedly. 'A happiness'. This suggests something entirely different, non? It means I'm feeling a calm I've never felt before for reasons I've never had to be happy about. To indulge further would mean giving my enemies knowledge, a location on my mental map, but know this: I have created a happy place in my head and elsewhere, defended my territory, and I'm not likely to let my guard down over such simple things again.

I'm in a place where I'm happy to not pollute my head and my body. This may not last long, I'm quick to sway and easy to indulge in hellish substances and world views from the status quo. If anyone surrounding me right now knew this, they would perhaps stop polluting the air waves to let me soak it all in, but they dont know, and they wont stop, but that's fine. If my body and mind felt this harmonious all the time, imagine how productive I would be! Haha. The words 'Im bored' would never pass my lips, I would have ten times the energy I usually do, and decision making.. Oh decision making! My true set back in life. If I had one of those magic 8 balls to help me I would be as close to a deity as they come in this 21st century.

Im going to leave with that.

fin